you think you're well-prepared
but come that crucial moment
you find your strength, so impaired
There's always something
yet when you about to catch it
you find your persistence, disappear
Your desire for isolation (tajreed), while Allah has put you in the world to gain a living (fil-asbaab), is a hidden passion.
Imam Taj ad-Din ibn ‘Abd Karim ibn 'Ata'illah al-Maliki al-Iskandari in The Hikam